If being and becoming a Mom is a test for your anxiety, worrying and overthinking everything then, it’s the best one there is. And it’s a journey not everyone gets to experience. I definitely took it for granted, I mean... growing up we were told you could easily get pregnant and how careful you had to be. So why wouldn’t you be able to get pregnant on your honeymoon, or as soon as you wanted? Why wouldn’t this be something in life that could be perfectly thought out and pla

The buildup to having a baby is a big one. The wait. The excitement, the anticipation. It’s a life change, a momentous event. And then the buildup to having a baby when you waited years and went through infertility treatments is even more of a climb. Like hiking up a mountain, without water on no sleep, in the dark… sans flashlight. That kind of climb. And then you get to the top the instant the sun peaks over the mountain and illuminates the whole sky. And you feel that acco

I said goodbye. I said goodbye to a life that I thought I wanted. To a life that I did want. To a life that I worked so hard to get. To make happen. Everything I envisioned, I created. I said goodbye to an amazing place and an adventure for a new life I wanted to create. For a new little actual human life I knew in my heart was on the way. Sometimes we have to say goodbye to what we thought we wanted. To what we needed. To what we needed in order to get to where we are now. S

I don’t care about the mess. Because that’s how it is now. And it bothers me some but not enough to take me out. Or to miss out. If being a parent is a test of your anxiety level, patience and second guessing every single thing you do… then it’s a damn good one if I ever saw. I had lots of ideas what I thought this would be like: MOTHERHOOD. The cute stuff, the fluff, the perfect pictures. The birthday parties, playing with barbies and family gatherings. And that’s the thing

We got this, you guys! WE GOT THIS. One step at a time, one day at a time, moment to moment. I recently spent 22 Days, 22 Hours and 43 Minutes in the Hospital (and the only reason I know the exact amount is because they tell you when you 'check out') - or whatever it's called when you leave. ANYWAY>>>>> I was in St Luke's Allentown Labor and Delivery with a high risk pregnancy situation. Going into it, I knew I'd be there for the long haul so I mentally prepared myself as muc