If being and becoming a Mom is a test for your anxiety, worrying and overthinking everything then, it’s the best one there is. And it’s a journey not everyone gets to experience.
I definitely took it for granted, I mean... growing up we were told you could easily get pregnant and how careful you had to be. So why wouldn’t you be able to get pregnant on your honeymoon, or as soon as you wanted? Why wouldn’t this be something in life that could be perfectly thought out and pla
Going through hard stuff in your life. It's like falling into a lake. Once you do it you can't go back. You can get dried off but you will always have that experience of falling in. You will associate lakes with fearful thoughts. When you walk up to the edge of the lake you will think about the last time or that one time when you fell in. You can't take back experiences and experiences can shape your future. They can make or break it, they can literally create it. And you get
We've heard this term before, right? Stop "shoulding" all over yourself. Have you ever been trying to enjoy something and you can't because you feel like you should be doing something else instead. Spending time with your family but thinking you really should be working. Relaxing or doing something fun but you feel as though you should be productive. Sitting down on the couch during naptime and watching Below Deck Med and Eating Stacy's Pita chips when really you 'should' be
The Surprises. The expectations. And visa versa. Everyone has expectations of what they think this is going to be like, right? Motherhood, being a parent. A lot of the excited expectedness was all the fun times. The zoo, the birthday parties, the laughter, the love. And of course you think about the crying and the diapers and all the hard stuff. Obviously it's going to be hard. And especially when you are an #infertilitywarrior , when you suffered for years #ttc . And you kno
I said goodbye. I said goodbye to a life that I thought I wanted. To a life that I did want. To a life that I worked so hard to get. To make happen. Everything I envisioned, I created. I said goodbye to an amazing place and an adventure for a new life I wanted to create. For a new little actual human life I knew in my heart was on the way. Sometimes we have to say goodbye to what we thought we wanted. To what we needed. To what we needed in order to get to where we are now. S
Following “The Rules”. . . Do you have a rule book for yourself? The should’s and should not’s that you “allow” yourself to do. Do you hold yourself back from things? Or tell yourself you need to wait to do something you really want? I’m not ready. I need to accomplish THIS before I can try doing THAT. I have to lose 5lbs before I wear the new bikini. I have to be single for x amount of months before I can date again. I can’t eat that donut unless I do the stair climber for 4
Yes, I actually wrote that title... it's not the one that came with the template. Been thinking a lot lately about WHY - and the why things happen. I've done a lot of "why me's" in my lifetime. And a lot of those were recent in the last few years. Dealing with #infertility there were a lot of "why the fuck is this happening to ME!"'s. And in times like these no one wants to hear "Everything happens for a reason". PAHlease. When you are hurting, and grieving and sad and dealin