It literally is taking each moment to moment. . Things can change in an instant. Especially when you have kids. Especially when you are dealing with infertility. Especially when you are pregnant. Especially in this world we live in. And let’s be real, just in life. . One minute can be going great, the next can be a meltdown or mood change or - “how the F and I going to handle this!” . One minute you realized you forgot something, dropped the ball or plans aren’t going to work

If being and becoming a Mom is a test for your anxiety, worrying and overthinking everything then, it’s the best one there is. And it’s a journey not everyone gets to experience. I definitely took it for granted, I mean... growing up we were told you could easily get pregnant and how careful you had to be. So why wouldn’t you be able to get pregnant on your honeymoon, or as soon as you wanted? Why wouldn’t this be something in life that could be perfectly thought out and pla

The buildup to having a baby is a big one. The wait. The excitement, the anticipation. It’s a life change, a momentous event. And then the buildup to having a baby when you waited years and went through infertility treatments is even more of a climb. Like hiking up a mountain, without water on no sleep, in the dark… sans flashlight. That kind of climb. And then you get to the top the instant the sun peaks over the mountain and illuminates the whole sky. And you feel that acco

I don’t care about the mess. Because that’s how it is now. And it bothers me some but not enough to take me out. Or to miss out. If being a parent is a test of your anxiety level, patience and second guessing every single thing you do… then it’s a damn good one if I ever saw. I had lots of ideas what I thought this would be like: MOTHERHOOD. The cute stuff, the fluff, the perfect pictures. The birthday parties, playing with barbies and family gatherings. And that’s the thing